FullmoonBlues

I WANT TO KILL MY SELF SLOWLY …

Kukira kau
tinggal …

Tuk waktu yg
lama …

Terlanjur ku
senang …

Ternyata …

Ada

yang tak benar …

Cintai dirimu …

Seperti misteri
…

Ku lihat kau
tenang …

Ternyata …

Ada

yang tak benar …

Tak mudah
terlupa …

Tak mungkin
terbuang …

Baru ku sadar …

Waktunya yang
salah …

Did I disappoint you … or  let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty … or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end … before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded …and I knew I had won.

So I took what’s mine … by eternal
right.
Took your  soul out … into the night.
It may be over … but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you … if you’d only care.

 You touched my heart .. You touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your  head.

Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well .. I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer .. But when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit .. it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on .. remember me,
Remember us and all .. we used to be

I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the mother of your  child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our  doubts but now we’re fine,

And I love you .. I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so .. I’m so ..
I’m so hollow

Sunday afternoon

Cepat cepat jangan
terlambat

jangan lama-lama waktu terus berjalan

sekarang aku butuh
kepastian

dan ini ini saat ini

waktu yang tepat

jangan tunggu sampai aku berpaling

ke pria yang lain

kalo cinta aku .. jawab saja iya

tak ingin kudengar .. mungkin .. mungkin .. mungkin ..

atau kau nggak suka .. bilang terus terang

jangan ada kata .. terserah
.. terserah

ngaku .. ngaku .. ngaku aja deh

elo lagi bingung

mikirin antara aku atau
putusin pacarmu

P.s : Deadline August 09′ 2007

I
love the way you look at me
I feel the pain you place inside
you lock me up inside your dirty cage
while I’m alone inside my mind

I like to teach you all the rules
I get to see them set in stone
I like it when you chain me to the bed
there your see what’s never shown

I can’t control you
You can control me
I need to feel you
So why’s it even

I love the way you rape my skin
I feel the hate you place inside
I need to get your voice out of my head
Cause I’m the girl you’ll never find

I think you know all the rules
there’s no expressions on your face
I hope that some day you will let me go
Release me from my dirty cage

I can’t control you
You can control me
I need to feel you
So why’s it even…you and me..

I
love the way you look at me
I love the way you smack my ass
I love the dirty things you do
I have control of you

I need to feel you
You need to feel me
I can’t control you
You’re  the one for me

You’re  the one for me ….

You know… I never felt like this before

Feels like.. so real

I’m obsessive when just one thought of you comes up,
I’m aggressive just one thought of closing up,
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue,
‘Cause every moment gone you know I miss you,
I’m the question and you’re of course the answer,
Just hold me close boy ’cause I’m your tiny dancer,
You make me shaken up, never mistaken,
But I can’t control myself, got me calling out for help…

S.O.S. please someone help me,
It’s not healthy… for me to feel this way ..
Y.O.U. are making this hard,
I can’t take it, see it don’t feel right ..
S.O.S. please someone help me,
It’s not healthy… for me to feel this way ..
Y.O.U. are making this hard,
You got me tossin’ and turnin’ and can’t sleep at night ..

This time please someone come and rescue me,
‘Cause you on my mind it’s got me losing it ..
I’m lost, you got me lookin’ for the rest of me,
Love is testing me but still I’m losing it ..
This time please someone come and rescue me,
‘Cause you on my mind, it’s got me losing it ..
I’m lost, you got me looking for the rest of me,
Got the best of me, so now I’m losing it ..

Just your presence and I second guess my sanity,
Yes it’s a lesson, it’s unfair, you stole my vanity,
My tummy’s up in knots so when I see you I get so hot,
My common sense is out the door, can’t seem to find the lock,
Take on me you know inside you feel it right,
 Take me on, I’m put desire up in your arms tonight,
 Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight,
I’m out with you, you got me head over heels,
Boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel ..

Boy, you know you got me feeling open,
And boy, your loves enough with words unspoken,
I said boy I’m telling you, you got me open,
I don’t know what to do it’s true,
I’m going crazy over you,
I’m begging ……

p.s : please help me …

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucoba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup

reff:
engkau bukanlah segalaku
bukan tempat tuk hentikan langkahku
usai sudah semua berlalu
biar hujan menghapus jejakmu

terus melangkah melupakanmu
lelah hati perhatikan sikapmu
jalan pikiranmu buatku ragu
tak mungkin ini tetap bertahan

perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu
kucoba untuk terus menjauh
perlahan hatiku terbelenggu
kucoba untuk lanjutkan hidup

repeat reff

bridge:
lepaskanlah segalanya
lepaskanlah segalanya

P.S : Sorry … I have to go !!!

Sudah Kuberitahu …

Masih Juga Begitu ..

Berkali-kali Diberitahu ..

Tak Juga Kau Mengerti …

Aku Bosan Dengan Sikap-sikapmu..

Aku Bosan Dengan Kelakuanmu …

Dari Pada Ribut2 Nggak Sempet "makelove"

Mestinya Memang Lebih Baik Kita ..

Pisah Saja Dulu ..

Kamu Tau Mauku ..

Tapi Nggak Mau Tau..

Pergi Dan Pikir Dulu
Biar Kau Kenal Siapa Aku…!!

jangan pernah berfikir aku akan menangisi diri mu …
jangan pernah berfikir aku akan menyesal mengenal diri mu …
jangan pernah berfikir seperti itu  …

aku akan tertawa …
aku akan bahagia …
aku akan menggila …

mengenal mu ..
mengenang mu ..
mengingat mu …

p.s : July 30′07

Kau boleh acuhkan diriku
..
Dan anggap ku tak ada ..
Tapi takkan merubah perasaanku ..
kepadamu ..

Kuyakin pasti suatu saat ..
Semua kan terjadi ..
Kau kan mencintaiku ..
Dan tak akan pernah ..
melepasku ..

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu,
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu,
Selalu bersedia bahagiakanmu,
Apapun terjadi ….
Kujanjikan aku ada ….

Kau boleh jauhi diriku ..
Namun kupercaya ..
Kau kan mencintaiku ..
Dan tak akan pernah ..
melepasku ..

Aku mau mendampingi dirimu,
Aku mau cintai kekuranganmu,
Aku yang rela terluka,
Untuk masa lalu …

P.s :  menunggu mu ….